something bigger than us : freedom flotilla

I was watching TV, which was showing talk show about humanitarian mission freedom flotilla 2.

Crochetting

Too much free time will leads to brain dead.. Its honestly very challenging to crochet, and teaches me about patience..Nevertheless its addictive XD

Happy song! - Sugar , Sugar : by The Archies

old boss

Last night I dream of my boss,in peadiatric dept..she is a power woman , very outspoken, sometimes we feel scared and amazed at the same time, but she is single.

I had a dream of her few weeks back, gives me idea that I might end up just like her..
But lastnight, I dream that she got engaged! and she told me , that she finally found love..

Honestly I'm in no mood of calling my old hospital to confirm my dream , but still wondering what could that possibily means..

Hmm

vampires? dont you lie :)

I was talking to dad today re vampires..Conclusions is

Vampire should not look pale and gorgeous , like Edward

Instead , they should looks like a thalassemia patients from iron loaded ( thalassemia patient receive blood transfusion sometime as frequent as every other day!) . They have darker skin (compare to their siblings , frontal bossing , malocclusion of teeth, like the picture below

Thus vampire whom depending on blood as main course should have high iron load as well :D

If I turn out to be a spinster (Jika aku jadi andartu)

Reality is some of us will end up being spinster .
As I look around me , most of my friends are either in relationship or married.

Truth is not all relationship will end up with marriage and not all marriage will end up with ever after.

There are recent increase in number of divorce especially newly wed ,say less than 2 years of marriage
(Maybe my observation are based in my peer group,that give me this idea,while 10years back I hardly knew anyone who are married.)
While some of those who get married (and have kids) but end up being abuse by their husbands.


So lets think of the possibilities of being spinster.

IF I'M A SPINSTER

• I don't want to end up being cranky boss that hated by all .

[Lonely enough that you have to go back to empty house, why should you make more enemies at work? Some colleagues could be your activity partners. ]

•  I don't want to be the boss who give way to guys 

[ I honestly been in the group where male colleagues get away from being scolded ,mainly bcs they are male.grrr! ]

• I might try to adopt a baby 

[ well I discover that I'm capable of love (haha) , so why not get a baby (or pet) with whom you can share/pour the love ]

• I want to travel [ Being single & working = money & time ]

Ps : When I was young , I was amazed by story of Rabiyatul Adawiyah  (honestly I'm no way near, not even within reach of her league ) but a girl can only dream
Semoga kita ada tempat di sisi Allah kelak

new interest

I've bought new camera last week, after consulting my friend who is also professional photographer

I end up buying p300,coolpix

Honestly , its has no look at all, as usual girls more into look than quality, we often blinded by colourful camera that worth 50% less , but yea , in the end what with the look if you end up feeling disappointed right? hehe

Here are among the colourful eye catching cameras

Been taking very nice photos around the house, looks so real as though it gonna come out of the screen.LOL. but its all the camera that do trick.

More pics are in my FB account, thinking of joining flicker now that I have new camera.hehe

Taa~

Wslm

beloved house

For the past 2 weeks was very disappointed, as I was asked to move from my current quarters at kk before 16th june, due to some administration reasons.
Was feeling low, dont even have mood to continue decorating or cleaning

Last thursday, after seeing my boss , i manage to stay in this house and the order to evacuate the house was annulled. I have gain some friends in this battle and get to know some character.

All I can say is, whatever we have doesnt belong to us, it belongs to Him and He can take it away at anytime, not to make us suffer , but to bring us closer to Him.

Alhamdulillah

spare tyres

As everyone expected working in kk means you r seeing patients, while you are sitting, thus more like a desk job,unless there is an emergecny case that u have to attend at emergency room .

We also have more course to attend compare to those woring in the hospital , as courses is the only way we can have " learning session" unlike hospital, where the specialist will give you "input" during rounds.
Atending course = 3 meals/day: breakfast,lunch and tea.

sum it all up : calories intake > calories been burn out

this equal to overweight doctors.. huk huk..

When I first join the service as HO , i was abit plum..bcs of sedentary life style at college during study period and at home after graduated..Then I started working, i lost about 10kg,yehuuu!!! There were days that I dint manage to eat for > 24Hours! (huh , baik aku niat puase je masa tuh,hehe)

While being in ED HPJ (means working shift hours = increase chances to eat) a staff come over and asked if im expecting!!(while tapping my "baby bump") sob sob.. i can just smile to her, saying.. ini semua kegemukkan akak (i can't even say that, im not even married!!) hahahaha

So now i can sense that my fat has start to accumulate and i have to do something :D

Living in a secret garden

Its been about 10yrs since the last time I actually watch Korean dramas.
The last one was "successful story of a bright girl" by Jang Nara.

Last week I had a chance of watching another romantic comedy "Secret Garden"..the storyline is almost similar ,with mystical element ..What so unique about Korean romantic comedy,although we might know how it will end, but the character is so adorable ,it was made to steal the heart of audiences.

Reality of life always made us become bitter and feeling defeated,this series, it brings me back to being teenage girl and it also show the extend that people in love will do to stay together . =)

HOship - check!

Now that I'm done with HOship,whats next?
Whole 2 years been trying to figure out what I really want to do next, until now I have no answer for that.
Mainly because I enjoyed all department(with Obs& Gyne as an exception!).They call it "free thinker".

Few friends are studying for MRCP, sometime I wonder if I should join them ,because I'm so fascinated by the fact that they can make a decision, and time is not going to wait for me either..

But then ,
whats the point of following ppl blindly ..

So i decided to give myself another year to think about it..

Meanwhile I'm now a Medical Officer(yehuu!) but it also mean I'm going to leave my family soon to work in Malacca

Life as a health care worker means you have to sacrifice (time - to sleep , to be with family, relationship ,and even yourself)..you belong to the institution.

Semoga semua urusan dipermudahkan oleh Allah.

Things I want to do (cont)

7.perform Umrah&hajj
8.Go on cruise
9.Attend philharmonic orchestra
10.Learn ballroom dance
11.Visit Great Wall of China
12.Visit San Francisco Golden Gate Bridge
13.Fix a tie
14.Sleep under the stars
15.Learn roller blading ,ice skating
16.Attend concert
17.make ice cream from scratches
18.stay in small island,with only basic necessity

so far I'm gonna start  on my 1st on the list by tomorrow ,wish me luck

Are we ready?

Since I started my housemanship, I’ve encountered so many deaths, either due to terminally ill diseases or acute insult.
But the number doesn’t makes me immune to death, like some said.
It’s  heart breaking to break the bad news to the family member.
Every patient that has died used to be somebody important & means the world to someone.
Innalillah hiwa innailaihi rajiuun
‘From Him we come, and to Him we’ll return to.”
Are we ready?